Shayne Ward

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Shayne Ward
Background information
Birth name Shayne Thomas Ward
Born 16 October 1984 (age 36)
TamesideGreater Manchester, England
  • Singer
  • actor
Instruments Vocals
Years active 2005–present

Shayne Thomas Ward (born 16 October 1984)[1] is an English singer and actor. He is best known for his role as Aidan Connor in Coronation Street from 2015 to 2018. He rose to fame as the winner of the second series of The X Factor. His debut single, “That’s My Goal“, was released in the United Kingdom on 21 December 2005 and reached number one on the UK Singles Chart and was that year’s Christmas number one.[2] It sold 313,000 copies on its first day of sales, making it the third-fastest-selling single of all time in the UK, behind Elton John‘s “Candle in the Wind 1997” and Will Young‘s “Evergreen“, which sold 685,000 and 400,000 copies in their first days of sale, respectively.[3]

Ward was the first X Factor winner to release an original song as his winner’s single. His prize, as winner, was a recording contract with Simon Cowell‘s Syco record label, which is co-owned by Sony Music. His eponymous debut album was released in April 2006. It debuted at number one on both the Irish and UK Albums Charts, going 4× Platinum in Ireland and Platinum in the UK. It spawned two hit singles: “No Promises” and “Stand by Me“. The follow-up album, Breathless, featuring the top 10 hits “If That’s OK with You” and “No U Hang Up“, was released in November 2007 and topped the Irish charts, where it went 5× Platinum.

In November 2010, after a three-year hiatus, Ward released his third album, Obsession. In contrast to Shayne Ward and Breathless, it underperformed with first-week sales of under 23,000, and missed the top 10 in both the UK and Ireland. In 2011, Ward was dropped by Syco. In 2015, he released a new album Closer as an independent artist, funded through PledgeMusic.[4]

In 2015, he began appearing as Aidan Connor in TV’s Coronation Street as a regular character. He made his last appearance in May 2018.

Early life[edit]

Ward was born in TamesideGreater ManchesterEngland to Irish Traveller parents who settled in England. In 2002, he reached the final thirty of Popstars: The Rivals.[5] Prior to his participation in The X Factor, Ward was in a band called Destiny with two women named Tracy Murphy and Tracey Lyle, performing at pubs, clubs and weddings.[5]


2005: The X Factor[edit]

In early 2005, Ward auditioned for the second series of The X Factor in front of judges Simon CowellSharon Osbourne and Louis Walsh. He impressed all three judges and passed through to the next round. His category, 16 to 24-year-olds, was then mentored by Walsh, and Ward was chosen to be among Walsh’s top four contestants and perform on the live shows. Ward quickly became the bookmakers‘ favourite to win the show, and after making it to the grand final, he defeated Cowell’s duo Journey South and Osbourne’s over-25 singer Andy Abraham and was crowned as the winner.[6] He had not fallen into the bottom two throughout the entire competition, and won by a margin of 1.2% of the vote, out of a reported 10.8 million phone votes cast by viewers. Immediately after the competition, his X Factor mentor Walsh became his manager under a joint venture with Global Publishing and Walsh Global Management.

2006–07: Breakthrough and Shayne Ward[edit]


Ward performing during the Shayne Ward Live 2007 tour.

Immediately after his victory on The X Factor, Ward signed a recording contract with Syco Music and his first single, “That’s My Goal“, was released in the UK on Wednesday, 21 December 2005. After selling 742,000 copies in the first week, including 313,000 on its first day, it became the Christmas number one single of 2005, held the top spot for four weeks and stayed in the top 75 until June 2006, a 21-week run. It became, at that time the fourth-fastest-selling UK single of all time, beaten only by Elton John‘s “Candle in the Wind“, Will Young‘s “Anything Is Possible/Evergreen“, and Gareth Gates‘ “Unchained Melody” which sold 685,000, 403,000 and 335,000 copies in their first days of sale, respectively.[3] To date, “That’s My Goal” has sold over 1.3 million copies in the UK. Ward also won an Ivor Novello Award for being the Best Selling Single. Ward’s second single, “No Promises“, a cover of a Bryan Rice song was released on 10 April 2006, and peaked at number two (behind “Crazy” by Gnarls Barkley) in the UK Singles Chart. Shayne Ward, his self-titled debut album was released on 17 April 2006. It sold 201,266 copies in the first week and entered the albums chart at number one. To date, the album has sold 520,000 copies in the UK and a further 2,000,000 worldwide, reaching number one in eight other countries. The album was certified platinum. Ward’s third single was “Stand by Me“.

It was confirmed in Gary Barlow‘s autobiography My Take, that in 2006, fellow Take That member, Jason Orange threatened to quit the band, and Ward was seriously considered as his replacement. Orange, however, later changed his mind and a replacement was not required.[7] In August 2006, it was reported that Ward had developed vocal cord nodules — the same condition that stopped the singing career of Julie Andrews — and was to be flown out to Los Angeles in early September to see a specialist surgeon. Walsh released a statement that he was confident Ward would be fine and would be back at work by the end of the month. Ward had a successful treatment and was indeed able to return to his singing career. In November 2006, he released his autobiography entitled My Story. He travelled to several places around the UK for book signings, which hundreds of people attended. In early 2007, Ward embarked on a solo tour of UK & Republic of Ireland venues, taking in eighteen concerts in twenty-eight days from late January to mid-February. The tour commenced in Dublin on 21 January and ended in Birmingham on 17 February 2007.

2007–11: Breathless and Obsession[edit]

After the completion of his successful debut tour, Ward’s fourth single and first from his second album, “If That’s OK with You” was given a release date of 20 August 2007, but was then delayed and became a double A-side single with “No U Hang Up“. It was finally released on 24 September 2007, and charted at number two in the UK being held off by the Sugababes with “About You Now“. “No U Hang Up” and “If That’s OK with You” charted separately in Ireland, the former reaching number eleven and the latter entering at number one. Ward’s second album, Breathless, was released on 26 November 2007, and after selling over 95,000 copies in its first week, debuted at number two on the UK Albums Chart, held off the top spot by his X Factor successor, Leona Lewis’s, multi-platinum selling debut, Spirit. In Ireland, the album debuted at number one, removing Lewis’s album from the top spot, a position it held for three weeks, and was later certified five times platinum. The second single from Ward’s album was announced as “Breathless“, and was released on 19 November 2007. It peaked at number six in the UK and number two in Ireland. On 10 November, Ward performed “Breathless” on the live results show of the fourth series of The X Factor, although the single was not available for download until 18 November, followed by a performance on The Paul O’Grady Show on 19 November. In the UK the album has been certified platinum with sales of over 450,000. In May 2008, Ward embarked on his month-long UK tour, The Breathless Tour 2008. He made his stage debut at London’s O2 Arena and visited his home town Manchester at the MEN Arena. He also performed his complete show as a support act for Westlife‘s 2008 tour in front of a crowd of over 80,000 at Ireland’s Croke Park. Ward also played on the opening night at The O2, Dublin, at the Cheerios Childline concert on 16 December 2008.

Ward began working on his third album in 2009 with producers RedOne and Taio Cruz.[8] The album, titled Obsession, was released on 15 November 2010.[9] The singer worked with songwriters such as Savan KotechaQuiz & Larossi and Lucas Secon, while the songs produced by RedOne and Taio Cruz will not be included.[10] The first single from the album is a cover version of Nickelback‘s 2008 single, “Gotta Be Somebody“.[11] Ward’s version was released on 7 November 2010 and reached number 12 in the UK and number 10 in Ireland.[9] The video for the song premiered on 29 October 2010 and he performed the song on The X Factor on 7 November. Ward also performed at the Miss World Pageant, which was held in Sanya, China. He did his first television appearance in over two years, on Live from Studio Five the day after his X Factor appearance, where he also performed his single. The album reached number 11 in Ireland on 19 November and peaked at number 15 in the UK on 21 November. On 8 March 2011, Ward performed the title track from the album Obsession on The Alan Titchmarsh Show. In an interview with Digital Spy Ward stated that he hoped he could release a second single from the album.

2011–2015: Closer and other projects[edit]

On 9 June 2011, it was announced that Ward would star as Stacee Jaxx in 1980s-themed musical Rock of Ages at the Shaftesbury Theatre, London.[12] For this role, Ward received a nomination for The DEWYNTERS London Newcomer of the Year award from the 2012 What’s on Stage Awards.[13] He announced that he would return to the studio in September 2012, after the end of his contract with Rock of Ages.[citation needed] In February 2014, Ward released a version of “Falling Slowly” with Louise Dearman. In 2014, Ward joined the cast of Jeff Wayne’s Musical Version of The War of the Worlds for the final arena tour of that production, as the Artilleryman.[14]

On 19 September 2014, Ward announced was working on a new album with Mike Stock, with a then-projected release of February 2015 through PledgeMusic.[15] Ward later postponed the release to April, with the video for the first single “My Heart Would Take You Back”, due to be filmed on 25 February 2015 in London.[16] The album was released in April 2015 and peaked at No.17 in the UK albums chart. It featured two further singles; “The Way You Were” and “Moving Target”.

2015–2018: Coronation Street[edit]

On 12 May 2015, ITV announced they had signed Ward to a one-year contract deal to appear on Coronation Street as Aidan Connor, a “distant cousin of Michelle who grew up on the same estate as her and knicker boss Carla Connor“.[17] He made his on-screen debut in August 2015.[18] For his performance, he received 2016 National Television Award[19] and 2016 Inside Soap Award, both for the Best Newcomer. His contract was renewed the following year due to the character’s popularity and he continued in the role for another two years.

In early 2018, Ward announced that he was leaving the role. He made his last appearance as Aidan Connor on 7 May 2018, in a storyline highlighting male suicide.[20] The storyline gained much attention from the press. Ward has also spoken of his significant weight gain during his time on the show. He revealed that he gained three stone (42 lbs) and said that the tempting canteen food at Granada studios was partly to blame, although he was largely unconcerned by negative comments he received regarding this.[21] He subsequently slimmed down towards the end of his time on the show.

After leaving the show, he was cast as a lead in the film, Stairs, a psychological drama.[22]

Awards and nominations[edit]

Year Award Category Nominee/work Result Ref.
2016 National Television Award Newcomer Coronation Street Won [23]
2016 British Soap Award Best Newcomer Coronation Street Nominated [24]
2016 TV Choice Award Best Soap Newcomer Coronation Street Won [25]
2016 Inside Soap Award Best Newcomer Coronation Street Won [26]
2016 Inside Soap Award Sexiest Male Coronation Street Nominated [27]
2018 British Soap Award Best Actor Coronation Street Longlisted [28]
2018 TV Choice Award Best Soap Actor Coronation Street Nominated [29]
2018 Inside Soap Award Best Actor Coronation Street Nominated [30]
2018 TVTimes Award Favourite Soap Star Coronation Street Nominated [31]
2018 Digital Spy Reader Award Best Male Actor Coronation Street Fifth [32]

Personal life[edit]

On 2 August 2016, Ward announced that he and girlfriend Sophie Austin would become parents for the first time.[33] On 3 December 2016, the pair welcomed their first child, a daughter.[34] In December 2017, Ward announced his engagement to Austin.[35]

In September 2017, Ward spoke out about his noticeable weight gain since becoming a father and through TV’s Loose Women appeared in a photo shoot, promoting body confidence for men, along with several other celebrities.[36]

Ward is a supporter of Manchester United.[37]




Jupiter’s Great Red Spot Is Growing Taller As It Shrinks… and Turning Orange

Jupiter’s Great Red Spot has been shrinking for a century and a half, and in recent years it has turned a deep orange color. Scientists are tracking these changes to see how the iconic spot is morphing, as well as how it might break apart altogether in the future, according to a new study.

A team of researchers created a timeline for the diminishing cyclone by looking at archived observations of the Great Red Spot, according to a recent statement by NASA. To trace the storm’s size, color, drift rate and shape, they combined these historical findings with spacecraft data going as far back as 1979, from the two Voyager missions, as well as data obtained from annual observations conducted with NASA’s Hubble Space Telescope by the Outer Planets Atmospheres Legacy project. [Jupiter’s Great Red Spot: A Monster Storm in Pictures ]

One surprising finding is that the Great Red Spot is growing taller. This study, led by Amy Simon, planetary atmospheres expert at NASA’s Goddard Space Flight Center in Greenbelt, Maryland, found that the diameter of the storm is shrinking, but its clouds are stretching upwards. 

“It’s almost like clay being shaped on a potter’s wheel,” NASA official Elizabeth Zubritsky said in a recent statement about the findings. “As the wheel spins, an artist can transform a short, round lump into a tall, thin vase by pushing inward with his hands. The smaller he makes the base, the taller the vessel will grow.”

Jupiter, with its Great Red Spot churning south of the gas giant's equator.

Jupiter, with its Great Red Spot churning south of the gas giant’s equator. (Image credit: A. Simon (Goddard Space Flight Center)/NASA/ESA)

Jupiter’s Great Red Spot is thought to have been so large that at one point it could have contained three Earths inside its width, according to NASA. As of April 3, 2017, the storm was 10,159 miles (16,350 kilometers) wide, slightly wider than Earth’s diameter.

Researchers don’t know why the storm has become more intensely orange since 2014, but suggest it’s possible that the growing height of the Great Red Spot might be the cause. As the storm stretches upward, the chemicals that give color to the storm might reach higher in the atmosphere, where they would receive more UV radiation from the sun and therefore darken.

“If the trends we see in the Great Red Spot continue, the next five to 10 years could be very interesting from a dynamical point of view,” said Rick Cosentino, co-author of the study and postdoctoral fellow at Goddard. “We could see rapid changes in the storm’s physical appearance and behavior, and maybe the red spot will end up being not so great after all.”

The study was published on March 13 in the Astronomical Journal.

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Fëdor Dostoevskij

Fëdor Michajlovič Dostoevskij nasce a Mosca nel 1821, secondo di sette fratelli. Il padre, Michail, è medico presso l’ospedale dei poveri ed è un uomo autoritario, progressivamente dedito all’alcolismo; la madre, Marija, proviene invece da una famiglia di mercanti: minata dalle continue gravidanze e dalla tisi muore nel 1837. In seguito a questa scomparsa, Dostoevskij fa domanda per entrare alla Scuola Superiore di Ingegneria di Pietroburgo e vi si trasferisce nel 1838. L’anno successivo il padre viene assassinato dai propri servi, esasperati dai suoi comportamenti: ricevuta la notizia, Fëdor ha il primo degli attacchi epilettici che segneranno la sua vita. Sulla figura paterna Dostoevskij modellerà almeno in parte, molti anni dopo, il personaggio di Fëdor Karamazov nei Fratelli Karamazov (1878-1880), il suo ultimo libro.

A Pietroburgo, Dostoevskij è più interessato alla letteratura che all’ingegneria: legge E. T. A. HoffmannGoetheHugoPuškinSchiller e si innamora di Gogol’ e Balzac – del quale, a soli 22 anni, traduce Eugénie Grandet. Sono gli anni di un apprendistato letterario che lo porterà a scrivere, nel 1844, il primo romanzoPovera gente, che diventa subito un caso letterario. L’anno successivo, con Il sosia, Dostoevskij introduce nella propria narrativa uno dei suoi grandi filoni tematici: quello del doppio. Nel frattempo, contrae il vizio del gioco– che lo porterà più volte sull’orlo della bancarotta e del quale parlerà esplicitamente nel romanzo Il giocatore (1866). Affascinato dalle idee socialiste partecipa a Pietroburgo agli incontri del circolo Petraševskij, di ispirazione fourierista (dal nome e le idee del filosofo utopista francese Charles Fourier, 1772-1837): nel 1849, insieme ad alcuni compagni, viene arrestato e condannato a morte ma, come era pratica frequente all’epoca, davanti al plotone d’esecuzione la sentenza è commutata in una condanna ai lavori forzati in Siberia. Questo è, naturalmente, uno spartiacque nella vita di Dostoevskij, che trascorre i successivi quattro anni in un campo di prigionia di Omsk, in compagnia di altri forzati e di un unico libro: la Bibbia. Lì, matura una visione profondamente cristiana del mondo (“Se qualcuno mi dimostrasse che Cristo è fuori dalla verità ed effettivamente risultasse che la verità è fuori dal Cristo, io preferirei restare con Cristo piuttosto che con la verità” scrive in una lettera 1; e più o meno le stesse parole pronuncerà nel 1871 Stavrogin, il protagonista dei Demoni) e si convince della “missione” del popolo russo, che da qui in poi sarà sempre visto come un ideale di purezza di spirito da contrapporre all’Occidente ateo e corrotto.

Questo punto di vista, che innerva tutta la seconda fase della sua vita e della sua produzione poetica, trova spazio nelle Memorie di una casa morta (1862), il resoconto degli anni della prigionia. Tornato a vivere a Pietroburgo, fonda con il fratello Michail la rivista di ispirazione nazionalista «Vremja» (Il Tempo), che verrà chiusa dopo pochi numeri. Nel frattempo, viaggia in Europa, gioca alla roulette e perde la prima moglie Marija, malata di tisi. È però iniziata la seconda fase della sua carriera letteraria, quella cosiddetta dei “grandi romanzi”. Nel 1864 esce Memorie dal sottosuolo, i cui primi capitoli vengono pubblicati su una nuova rivista co-diretta col fratello, «Epocha» (L’epoca): l’uomo del sottosuolo, altro grande Leitmotiv dostoevskiano, è un individuo abietto, che passa la propria vita nell’indigenza e nell’analisi impietosa delle proprie contraddizioni e bassezze. Convivono in lui la tentazione di umiliarsi mettendo sulla pubblica piazza le proprie miserie e la smania irrazionale di emergere: è l’evoluzione tutta dostoevskiana del già frequentato tema del doppio. Per uscire dal pantano della propria coscienza, d’ora in poi i personaggi dei romanzi di Dostoevskij non avranno altra via che l’immersione nel proprio io e l’accettazione dell’altro attraverso un atto d’amore e di umiltà che ha come punto d’arrivo finale la congiunzione con Cristo. La solitudine, la nevrosi, la sofferenza, il tormento intorno ai temi della verità, dell’armonia universale, della colpa e della redenzione sono ormai i cardini attorno a cui si muovono le figure che popolano i romanzi della seconda fase dostoevskiana: è così per Raskol’nikov, protagonista di Delitto e castigo(1866), per i Karamazov, per Stavrogin. Nelle figure del principe Myškin, protagonista dell’Idiota (1868) e di Alëša, il più giovane dei Karamazov, Dostoevskij ha invece voluto rappresentare degli uomini assolutamente buoni, vicini, per temperamento e per fascino, a un’idea di Cristo.

I grandi romanzi dostoevskiani sono scritti in modo febbrile sotto la pressione dei creditori (nel 1864 è morto il fratello Michail lasciando Fëdor pieno di debiti), l’acuirsi dei problemi di salute e di gioco e la morte, avvenuta nel 1868 a soli tre mesi, della figlia Sonja, avuta dalla seconda moglie Anna Grigor’evna. È forse questo avvenimento che rende i bambini, sinonimo di un’innocenza spesso violata e di vicinanza con l’Assoluto, un altro dei momenti fondamentali della poetica dostoevskiana. Nel 1876 pubblica il Diario di uno scrittore, dove raccoglie scritti politici, giornalistici e d’occasione: l’opera ottiene un grande successo commerciale. Nel 1880, a Mosca, viene invitato a partecipare all’inaugurazione del monumento a Puškin, e legge il celebre Discorso su Puškin, in cui, ancora una volta, ribadisce il ruolo messianico e universale dell’anima russa. Il 28 gennaio 1881, in seguito a un enfisema polmonare, muore nella sua Pietroburgo, il cupo e odiato sfondo della maggior parte dei suoi romanzi.

1 Lettera a N.D. Fonvizina, 1854, in Lettere sulla creatività, a cura di G. Pacini, Milano, Feltrinelli, 1994, p. 51.


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Abbiamo tutti bisogno di impulsi, di sogni e di magia, la necessità vitale di Poesia, che possa risvegliare le emozioni, troppo spesso sopite e distratte, per regalare ancora, nuovi colori e nuova luce, alle cose che ci circondano.
Per molte persone controllare la gelosia è uno sforzo enorme. Per alcune di queste è anche uno sforzo inutile: esprimere la propria gelosia diventa così un dovere, quasi un merito. Se non sei abbastanza geloso da rendere difficile la vita Altrui allora non sei degno di chiamarti uomo. L`unico tuo Problema è che Divieni uno Zombie svuotato completamente dallo Spirito di Luce.
Io non conosci perdono o pietà tanto meno con me stesso. Con estrema durezza faccio piazza di chi mi sta ostacolando. Anche nel tempo libero non me ne sto tranquillo. Infatti il tempo lo utilizzi per adottare nuove strategie.

Cosa Dicono e Cosa Pensano i
Demoni insiti nelle persone…
Mordo ripetutamente
il giogo
che di apparenze amare
pesa irrimediabile
sul mio ingravidato cuore,
dentello io stesso
mai pago di insoddisfazioni
il morso
che sempre più a fatica digerisco;
morboso non la smetto
di scuoiarmi gola
e dopo il petto
e se oblio viene ad alleggerir sospetto
in affaticamento stanco di ingranaggi inceppo
la linea limpida del sentimento
e fermo a quel fotogramma, solo,
la mia mente impiglio.
Un’ombra ancor sottile
si smuove maledetta
tra note di colore terse
e pizzica le cime
più aguzze del presentimento,
sciagure, smacchi e vicoli tortuosi
di pessima natura
mi soffocano alla vista
di sospettosi cenni.
Come capillari mi stringono le carni
che convogliano
cancrena infame
e di metastasi sottili,
di briglie sciolte
l’eco dei miei sospiri,
imbizzarisce voglia
che sfuma e poi ritorna
e torna adesso
per ritornare ancora
di gelosia silvestre
nel ventre lacero,
deglutisco amaro.
Sogiaccio inerte
a mio irrequieto
non volere
per un demone dagli occhi accesi
che incolume di rabbia vive e muore,
che si moltiplica infinitamente
in un universo di specchi rifrangenti
su cui si infrange l’insicurezza di me stesso,
mai sazio dei passati dèi
da lui famelica mente ormai sbranati
che navigarono lungo
la corrente tormentosa del mio sangue
ed animarono
gli usci chiusi e i miei antri oscuri.
Mentre sopiscono i miei sensi, non troppo a lungo
da invalidarne i segni,
stuzzica quel nervo
che su stessa mola batte
tre volte e ancor di più testardo
sull’arco dei miei sensi.
Non è in mio potere ormai
calmierarne le pretese
e le battaglie in corso,
carceriere di me stesso sono
tra le pieghe di un dolore immane.
Mi attacco dove muoio,
incollato attonito
a quell’istante unico
che una intera vita scrolla
quando rimpicciolisco intelligenze
se ad uscire non riesco
dai labirinti di finta noia
e di castranti intrighi
che in maglie infide di rete oscure
dell’altrui libero arbitrio catturare
tutte le notti di sospirati gigli
delle prossime cinque stagioni
come di quelle pur già passate,
e senza alcun ritegno possederlo,
nel territorio neutro del non-ricordo
polveri di sensazioni
di in-obliate cure, scomode ed acute,
per trionfare risolutamente
quale giudice assoluto
e ormai padrone
degli ultimi vitali segmenti
che di pulsazioni di sangue regolare
fecero affannoso il suo respiro.
Al giorno d’oggi quello che manca non è la gente,
ma le persone “vere”. Quelle che sanno rimanere,
quelle che lottano, quelle che amano così per come sei.

We all need impulses, dreams and magic, the vital necessity of Poetry, which can awaken emotions, too often dormant and distracted, to give still, new colors and new light, to the things that surround us.
For many people, controlling jealousy is a huge effort. For some of these it is also a useless effort: expressing one’s jealousy thus becomes a duty, almost a merit. If you are not jealous enough to make life difficult, then you are not worthy to call yourself a man. Your only problem is that you become a Zombie completely emptied of the Spirit of Light.
I do not know pardon or pity, much less with myself. With extreme hardness I place those who are hindering me. Even in my spare time I do not feel comfortable. In fact, the time you use it to adopt new strategies.

What they say and what do they think
Demons inherent in people …
I bite repeatedly
the yoke
that of bitter appearances
weighs irremediable
on my impregnated heart,
I dent myself
never satisfied with dissatisfaction
the bite
that I digress more and more with difficulty;
morbid I do not stop
to shave my throat
and after the chest
and if oblivion comes to lighten suspicion
in fatigue tired of gears
the clear line of feeling
and stop at that frame, alone,
my mind entangles.
An even thin shadow
it moves cursed
between terse color notes
and pinches the tops
more sharp than presentiment,
disasters, smashes and tortuous alleys
of bad nature
they suffocate me at the sight
of suspicious signs.
I like meat, my capillaries
that convey
infamous gangrene
and of thin metastases,
of loose bridle
the echo of my sighs,
fizzle desire
that fades and then returns
and come back now
to come back again
of silly jealousy
in the ragged belly,
I swallow bitter.
Inert ice
in my restlessness
do not want to
for a fiery-eyed demon
that unscathed in anger lives and dies,
that multiplies infinitely
in a universe of reflecting mirrors
on which the insecurity of myself is broken,
never satiated by the past gods
from him ravenous mind now torn to pieces
that sailed along
the tormenting current of my blood
and they animated
the closed doors and my dark caves.
While they suspend my senses, not too long
to invalidate the signs,
tease that nerve
that on the same mole beats
three times and even more stubborn
on the arc of my senses.
It is not in my power now
regulate their claims
and the battles in progress,
jailer of myself are
between the folds of a huge pain.
I attack where I die,
glued astonished
at that unique moment
that a whole life shakes
when I shrink intelligences
if I can not go out
from the labyrinths of fake boredom
and intriguing castration
that in dark net infide meshes
of the other free will to capture
all the nights of longed lilies
of the next five seasons
as of those already passed,
and without any restraint to possess it,
to drown
in the neutral territory of non-memory
sensations powders
of in-obliate cures, uncomfortable and acute,
to triumph resolutely
as an absolute judge
and now master
of the last vital segments
that of pulsations of regular blood
they breathed his breath.
Nowadays what is missing is not the people,
but the “real” people. Those who can stay,
those who struggle, those who love as you are.

فنحن جميعًا نحتاج إلى الدوافع والأحلام والسحر ، وهي الضرورة الحيوية للشعر ، التي يمكنها إيقاظ العواطف ، غالبًا ما تكون نائمة ومشتتة ، لإضفاء الألوان الثابتة والضوء الجديد على الأشياء التي تحيط بنا.
بالنسبة للعديد من الناس ، فإن السيطرة على الغيرة جهد ضخم. بالنسبة لبعض هذه الجهود ، فإنها أيضًا مجهود عديم الجدوى ؛ فالعبّر عن غيرة المرء يصبح واجبًا ، يكاد يكون ميزة. إذا لم تكن غيورًا بما يكفي لجعل الحياة صعبة ، فأنت لا تستحق أن تطلق على نفسك رجلًا. مشكلتك الوحيدة هي أن تصبح غيبوبة خالية تماما من روح النور.
أنا لا أعرف العفو أو الشفقة ، أقل بكثير مع نفسي. مع الصلابة الشديدة أضع هؤلاء الذين يعوقونني. حتى في أوقات فراغي لا أشعر بالراحة. في الواقع ، الوقت الذي تستخدمه لتبني استراتيجيات جديدة.

ماذا يقولون وماذا يفكرون
الشياطين الكامنة في الناس …
أعض بشكل متكرر
تلك المظاهر المريرة
يزن لا يمكن إصلاحه
على قلبي المشبع ،
أنا دنت نفسي
راض ابدا عن عدم الرضا
أنني استقر أكثر وأكثر بصعوبة.
مرضى لا أتوقف
لحلق حلقتي
وبعد الصدر
وإذا جاء النسيان لتخفيف الشكوك
في التعب تعبت من التروس
خط واضح من الشعور
والتوقف عند هذا الإطار ، وحده ،
عقلي يشابك.
ظل رقيق
يتحرك لعن
بين ملاحظه لون مقتضب
ويقرص قمم
أكثر حدة من المنظر ،
الكوارث والحطام والأزقة
من الطبيعة السيئة
خنقونني في الأفق
من العلامات المشبوهة.
أنا أحب اللحوم ، شعري
هذا ينقل
غرغرينا سيئة السمعة
ونقائل رقيقة ،
من لجام فضفاضة
صدى تنهداتي ،
رغبة في الازدهار
يتلاشى ثم يعود
وأعود الآن
للرجوع مرة أخرى
من الغيرة سخيفة
في بطن خشنة ،
أنا ابتلاع المر.
الثلج الخامل
في التململ
لا تريد ذلك
للشيطان الناري
أن سالما في الغضب يعيش ويموت ،
تتضاعف بلا حدود
في عالم يعكس المرايا
التي ينقطع فيها انعدام الأمن عن نفسي ،
لم يشبع من الآلهة الماضية
منه العقل مفترس الآن ممزقة إلى أشلاء
الذي أبحر
التيار المعذب لدمي
وهم متحركون
الأبواب المغلقة والكهوف المظلمة.
بينما يعلقون حواسي ، ليس طويلاً
لإبطال العلامات ،
ندف ذلك العصب
على نفس دقات الخلد
ثلاث مرات وأكثر عنادا
على قوس حواسي.
ليس في قوتي الآن
تنظيم مطالباتهم
والمعارك الجارية ،
السجان من نفسي
بين طيات الألم الهائل.
أنا أهاجم أين أموت ،
دهشتها بالدهشة
في تلك اللحظة الفريدة
أن حياة بأكملها تهز
عندما أتقلص الذكاءات
إذا لم أتمكن من الخروج
من متاهات الملل المزيف
والإخصاء مثير للاهتمام
في شبكة مظلمة ينخرط تنسجم
من الإرادة الحرة الأخرى لالتقاط
كل الليالي من الزنابق المتعثرة
من الفصول الخمسة المقبلة
اعتبارا من تلك التي مرت بالفعل ،
وبدون أي ضبط لامتلاكها ،
في المنطقة المحايدة من غير الذاكرة
مساحيق الأحاسيس
من العلاجات غير المكتملة ، غير مريحة وحادة ،
أن تنتصر بحزم
كقاض مطلق
والآن أتقن
من الأجزاء الحيوية الأخيرة
أن نبضات الدم العادية
تنفسوا أنفاسه.
في الوقت الحاضر ما هو مفقود ليس الناس ،
لكن الناس “الحقيقيين”. أولئك الذين يمكنهم البقاء ،
أولئك الذين يكافحون ، أولئك الذين يحبونك.